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Yeah....I almost think it would have been better had I not gotten...I guess you'd say reunited...with my biological father. Cause now, planning for holidays is becoming hell.

as far as other things go...I'm still pissed, and after reading something else today, even more pissed than I was to begin with. Contrary to what a friend of mine may think, saying to me "I'll let you know" does not mean that I am obligated to write back.
Yep, I'm planning on being a bitch for a while. And when the day comes that I encounter that friend...I'm hoping I'll be able to hold my tongue, otherwise she will cry, and I'll get made into the bad guy...as usual. (see, her and I have known each other so long that her responses to certain stimuli are predictable.) by that logic, I say "mean" (ie...truthful) things to her, she cries, and goes and tells everyone what a horrible person I am. She has only the slightest idea of how mean and nasty I can be. She knows what I did (or tried to do) to get even with my ex. And that was just using means that would have very little repercussion for myself.
I could do worse things...if I really tried. And if I convinced myself that I didn't care what karma would throw at me. Though sometimes, I really don't care about that. I did try to sic Hecate on one of the drivers at work after all. But it was particularly well deserved. She (friend...no, I'm not telling who) was convinced that there was going to be some sort of backlash from my doing that. However, I don't think there is going to be. If there were, it would have already happened.
I find myself leaning more and more towards a darker path...where the consequences of what I do don't seem to matter as much....where the rule of three doesn't matter much. I'm not sure if I really want to go there. Admittedly, it does feel good to be bad sometimes, but do I really want to be that way all the time?
Hmmmmmm....I need to think about that one some more.